One of my kittens, Ronnie, died yesterday. I found him lying in front of my car just before I started my car to get some dinner, already lifeless. To think I just patted and hugged him a few hours before…

I thought I could be an adult dealing with it. Just like I was cool and not bursting with anger when one of my housemates told me that she’s moving house in a day’s time. I can control my emotions. I’m old older now, there are many things bigger and more important than her moving out suddenly.

But no. I’m still the girl I was 15 years ago, who cried every time she found out her cat/kitten/pet siamang (yeah, my house did look a bit like a zoo back in the 90’s. We did have several exotic pets back then) died. I didn’t cry instantly; I managed not to shed a tear when my friend buried Ronnie; but I did cry afterwards, when I was alone in the car. I guess you could never run away from yourself, from what you were.

Sometime ago a friend forwarded me a Tickle test to take. That test was on how cool you are, and my result was that I’m ‘calm, cool and collected’, hahaha…

Took another test, and this is titled ‘What’s your true color?’. Here’s the result:

Your color is black.
The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of
elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines.
Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an
uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you
tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to
achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This
unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses
people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to
some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust
us, it won’t kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of
professionalism and achievement, which means it’s clearly the color for
you.

Hmmmm…..

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